I took "A Course in Miracles" with me, had some good meditations over the 3 days I was there. The first page of the book: "Nothing real can be threatened. Nothing unreal exists" certainly puts so much in perspective. Although my EGO balks at it, my spirit soars every time i think that thought, it became a mantra of my time this week. Putting what is "real" into perspective, aligning my soul to the vision of the universe, looking past the limited vision of my ego and self, realizing that it all fits together quite well without my tending to it.
It turns out I have been re-assigned to the same site for a visit in September, but it is unlikely that I will be going. I decided to quit my job as of the end of this month. I do not have another job yet, but have a "bridge" consultant job I can do in Florida. I would still have to travel, but it would be to the same place, and less stressful than some of the things that are happening within my company right now. I have concluded that there is no amount of money that can replace time spent with loved ones doing things you love. My intention then is to find work in NH so I can come home at night.
Meanwhile, we were supposed to sail to Portland today for the race this week-end, but Lioness was not repaired until today, so S will have to go to Portland tomorrow without me, since I have a job interview in the morning. I will drive up and meet him there for the pre-race festivities Friday and the race itself Saturday into Sunday. This evening, will get food, etc. ready for the week-end. I have had very little time to sail this year due to work, and mostly last minute schedule changes that prevented me from sailing. So I am REALLY looking forward to it! Also some good one-on-one time with Sheldon on the boat.... we may end up double handing the race, if no other crew shows up (which looks likely). Lots of work, but it will be great to be out on the water for the week-end!!!